She Got Her Happy Beginning

“Take the first job you can in the industry you want to get into. The job doesn’t matter, getting your foot in the door does.”
-Wes Craven

The universe has finally aligned and everything I have ever dreamed of is falling into place. I have been incredibly busy this summer up until this point. (Side note- happy fall y’all!) A few things that have been going on: I went to California to visit and found my roommate at brunch; I got my foot in the door with an awesome casting company here in Houston, TX, the lead in an independent film, and now I’ve accepted a job offer doing PR in Los Angeles! All the while going to school which (thankfully) I dropped out of. I know what your thinking; I was one semester from graduating. But that’s IF I passed all my classes and oh yeah IF I took nineteen hours…..which I did not. So technically I will be graduating in 2016 anyway so why not break it up into another semester and summer school? Logical thinking. And besides everything is happening so fast and I don’t want to miss an opportunity to further my career if I’m just getting my associates. Which is an annoying subject in itself but I’ll leave it here…

So let’s back up. My job originally started out as a three-month internship and they wanted to hire me within two weeks! I was thrilled and finally felt like I was doing something that I wanted to do. The girls are great and we all get along so well which makes work even more fun. We can work together and play together so we get the best of both worlds.

11377346_10153458270482009_4750411219008495387_nMy roommate, Jordan, is awesome and I call her my little L.A Angel. We are both from Houston but have never met before California. CAN YOU SAY FATE?! We agree on most things and I think it’s going to be so fun living with someone! I live alone and cook for one so it will be nice to be able to finish leftovers before they go bad. We basically spent the whole weekend together which were my last days in L.A. We went hiking at the Jim Morrison cave, chilled on the beach (because we both don’t do the ocean), and laughed a lot. I think it’s good to be around people who motivate you and only want to see people succeed. She’s very positive and always wants to pay if forward. There are good people still out there and when you find them, hold on tight.

Now to my most proud accomplishment over the last few months, SOULLESS. I was cast as the lead actress! When I got the email saying I was cast, I absolutely lost my sh**. It was validation that I was on the right path and I’m not crazy for having “unrealistic goals” because to me, being an actress is not unrealistic. It’s what I was meant to do and what I want to do. I want to make people laugh, and cry and feel things and move them in such a profound way. It was validation that no matter where I came from and what I’ve been through and what didn’t work out that this place, right here, is where I’m meant to be. Someone saw something in me that I thought only I could see. When I’m in an audition, or class or preparing a scene, nothing matters. I close the world off and a sense of calmness takes over. It’s the only time my mind doesn’t ever race and I truly live moment-to-moment. Performing is something that makes me genuinely happy. I’m pretty sure you can see it all over my face because I wear my heart and emotions on my sleeve. So with all this being said, unfortunately I won’t be in the movie. I got that amazing job offer and have to leave before the shoot dates.  I am really bummed about it but whatever is meant to be will find its way. I don’t have details about it but be on the look out and support these local Houston actors if you see it!

(My name is there. brb dead.)

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So, I couldn’t really tell you about the job in L.A because I don’t know, but what I can tell you is that it feels right. I am so excited to finally be doing something I love. I’m starting over. A new life, new friends, new career….it’s all SO exciting and I couldn’t be more ready. Everyone says that I have it all together. And that may be what it looks like from the outside but all I know for sure is that I live moment-to-moment. I don’t know what is coming next. I mean yeah, I have a plan that’s abut 95% set but there’s still loose ends to tie up and the future is still unknown. So why you may be looking at me thinking, “Wow I could never do that!” “You’re so brave.” “Aren’t you nervous?!” My answers to you are this: Yes you can. Some risks are worth taking. Of course, I am nervous but you can’t be afraid of failure.

You’re braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.

I want to see us all succeed. So let’s all help each other get there and achieve our goals because we aren’t each others competition, we’re each others teammates.

2 Comments

  1. Brady Schwartz
    October 7, 2015 / 7:18 pm

    I don’t know you but I just wanted to say I connected very heavily to your blog post from Sept 24th.Thank you!

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